P1 Human evolution travels a curve of development from acting out negativity to the next step, which is holding it back. This leads to repression. The step after repressing is making it conscious but not acting it out.
P2 But whatever means of rationalization you use, it is a tremendous battle for you to fully assume responsibility and to let yourself know the consequences of your negativity, of the hurt you inflict on yourself and others. You do this even with your thoughts and intentions, even when they are not carried through into action. You will acquire the ability to make the transition to the next step—deciding whether or not you want to open up to life and give of yourself.
No matter what external circumstance seems to be the cause of your unhappiness and dissatisfaction, it is really your own negative feelings and intentions that put you in this state. It is, perhaps, the next step in the transition that you allow yourself to see how you make the world responsible for your misery instead of connecting your misery with this or that particular negative attitude in yourself. You still fail to make the connection between the misery you experience, the dissatisfactions and the frustrations you experience, the feeling that life goes by without really fulfilling you, and the negative attitudes which you already know exist in you.
You have to put into use and pay attention to very finely calibrated listening mechanisms in order to discern your hidden motivations for whatever you do. Your goodwill and your sincerity are of course the determining factors. If you use these attributes, you will see yourself as you are and not as you want to appear.
P3 The next step is your true intent to give in trust and to know that giving is receiving. Only when you decide that giving to the universe is worth risking will you then find that you and the universe are one. As you give to it, you give to yourself. If you withhold yourself, it is impossible to receive from life. It is very easy to get lost in good intentions to give, to love, to be generous and open. When along with this intent you overlook the negative side where the storm of destructiveness and meanness still rages, you split your consciousness off from this part.
It is also just as easy to get lost when you have opened this immensely energetic powerhouse of negativity within you and stay in it, indulging in it, because you have now found a new energy you had lost when you denied the existence of evil. When you first rediscover this evil, you also rediscover energy which you never knew you possessed. You have to allow yourself to express this energy in a harmless way.
Divine power can manifest through you and must manifest through you if you wish to be in harmony with the universe. But the divine power and harmony cannot manifest through you, cannot give to you unless you open yourself so it can come through. Growth always proceeds from an inner center to an outer center. It is never added on from the outside as the distorted, immature personality expects. Growth can only unfold from within, for within you exists everything the universe contains.
P4 Such a community (spiritual centre) is such a rarity in this world that it will draw power in the spiritual sense, not in the worldly sense. This power will have its effect, and one day the difficulties and frictions that are inevitable in such a venture at the beginning will have taught you the necessary lessons. By recognizing obstructions for what they are even without necessarily being able to overcome them, you produce a cleanliness that can never exist in a group of people that hide their evil and pretend it does not exist.
As you express your hate, also express your love, for that exists too. As you express your withholding, also express your giving, for that exists too. As you express your lie you are already truthful in doing so. Even as you express your hate, you already love to some extent, especially when you do not explain it away and justify it, but instead name it for what it is. Nevertheless, you can also directly express love and giving, for that waits in you to be liberated. This is my message for you.
P5 Again, I say, be still, and know that deep within you is the nucleus of God that will speak to you. You will help it manifest if you say words such as: “Let go, let go of the mind and its preconceived ideas and its ingrained negativity. Let go of the habit and let God. Let in new attitudes, new feelings.” These may not be new, per se, but new for your conscious mind. You will hear the voice within that says, “Be still and know I am God,” in every one of you.
Say, “I have the power in me to let God manifest. I surrender to this will of truth and beauty. I want the love and the truth of God to instruct me. I want to give the best of my conscious life to let the truth and love and beauty of my innermost being unfold. I will not shy away from destroying my self-image, my vanity, my pride. For the truth and beauty and love of the supreme spirit within me are more important than my little vanity and my little self-righteousness. I dedicate my life to the Spirit of the Universe.”
Every answer you need exists if you listen to the universal indwelling spirit. Every solution to every problem will unfold if you trust this indwelling spirit. Seek it and you will know your truth. Seek it honestly and the love of the universe will forevermore unfold.
—The Pathwork® Guide