When we embark on a spiritual path, turning over the stones of our inner hidden beliefs and defenses to uncover the untruths they hold, we typically run into a ton of inner resistance. This is our Lower Self not wanting to expose and overcome itself. And then just under this resistance to facing ourselves is this pain that we live in an unjust, meaningless and chaotic place.
Our pain of injustice—of believing in a senseless world—puts a negative spin on things, boosting our joy-killing Lower Self behaviors. And on the flip side, our guilt for our negative and pessimistic attitude makes us feel like we don’t deserve the good life, replete with total justice.
This leads to a perplexing phenomenon: once we clear our resistance to facing our Lower Self traits, working through their consequences and painful effects, we experience profound relief. It’s like a weight lifts off our shoulders; the puzzle pieces fit and fall into place. What’s happening here?
It’s because in that moment, we have a personal experience that life is, in fact, fair. It’s totally just. And our perception of things can be corrected; our impaired vision can be restored. On the other hand, a universe in which evil can win—well, that can’t be corrected, and that’s a thoroughly dismal prospect.
Finding and Fighting the Fire
Understanding all this does us little good if there’s not a way out. So let’s look at how to unwind the pain of justice, which undoubtedly is one of the most unbearable pains felt in a human soul. We need to go back to considering the point that whatever exists in the macrocosm—the world at large—also exists in the microcosm—our own self. So the first place to look at creating a shift is in our own psyche.
No other way around it, we’ve got to do our own work. Otherwise we’ll spend our lives tilting at windmills outside ourselves, and never see that the distortion of truth must live within us. For if it did not, the outer chaos of the world wouldn’t light a fire deep in our bellies.
We need to peer into all the hidden crevices of our soul; this is the route that brings true security.
So on a spiritual path such as the one outlined in these teachings, we need to peer into all the hidden crevices of our soul; this is the route that brings true security. It wipes out the pain of injustice by establishing connections between cause and effect inside ourselves. Because we can’t believe in a fair and just universe if we can’t plainly see how all our actions—including thoughts and intentions, feelings and attitudes—result in definite effects. Then we’ll shift from seeing the world as a random land of arbitrary events, to spotting how our trivial-seeming daily occurrences roll up into life’s larger processes.
The war we’re really fighting is within, with our dual nature of Higher and Lower Selves at odds. Our Lower Self is all about justifying and rationalizing and projecting and blaming—all of which keeps our negativity snowballing. But any time we get away with acting out our Lower Self, our shallow, momentary triumph will only serve to cover over our deeper despair about living in a meaningless world.
What Goes Around, Comes Around
As long as we’re living in these bodily shells made out of matter, we are not going to be able to make all the connections; many will flat out remain invisible to us, even though we may intuitively pick up on some of the links, some of the time. To understand then that connections we can’t see really do exist, we’re going to need to have faith.
But true faith is, at least to some degree, experiential. We come to faith by increasingly uncovering the links that are buried inside ourselves. This expanding movement toward wholeness calms our fear about feeling the pain of injustice; it heals the wounds caused by our own fear.
We come to faith by increasingly uncovering the links that are buried inside ourselves.
Think about how it feels to witness some cruel event in which the perpetrators seem to get away with it. Or maybe when a good deed—such as genuine love and giving—are met with some undeserved blowback, or fail in some way to produce just rewards. From time to time, we’ll be able to ferret out deeper connections that reveal the perfect justice we are witnessing. But often this requires time. The unrolling of time will make the connections obvious, eventually bringing more truth to the surface.
But in the immediate moment—and this is equally true for big issues and little ones—we are in the dark. And the unrolling of time may extend beyond us. This is what spiritual scriptures refer to when they talk about the reality of ultimate justice—we may not see the whole story until after we’ve left our bodies behind. Often, there is a place-and-place referred to after death when everything will be revealed.
We’re typically not crazy about this idea, because it conjures up a punishing eye-in-the-sky deity—an unmerciful ruler who will bring justice down upon our heads. Where did we get this notion? Basically it came from ancient beliefs that confused God with the kind of cruel leaders we found on Earth. The true meaning of the “final judgment” though, is that we will finally see how all the puzzle pieces—of absolutely everything—fit together to form one beautiful picture. Then we’ll see the faultless justice embedded in each of God’s spiritual laws.
Spiritual laws are totally going to hold our feet to the fire.
So yeah, it sucks that we each have some negative karma to burn off; these spiritual laws are totally going to hold our feet to the fire. But any price we must pay for infringing on God’s laws is far outweighed by the joy of discovering that, wow, this is a fair place after all. Once the wool falls off our eyes, we will joyfully undertake whatever we must go through, because living in a trustworthy universe has so much more value than skipping out on paying off a debt.
Our relief over seeing cause and effect will more than offset having to pay the piper. Although, sure, we’re still going to resist being accountable for our infractions. But on a deeper level, we’ll be profoundly relieved to see the bigger picture: every teensy weensy particle of consciousness creates effects that come back around.
This can go one of two ways: we can create positive circles that work in a life-affirming way, or we can create negative vicious circles that deny life. In either case, it all goes like clockwork according to the cause.
The Giant Recorder
So how exactly does this work that everything gets accounted for—including our secret intentions and less-than-noble attitudes—even decades later? How can a person be judged for how they lived their life, after the fact? Turns out, there is an important principle at work here, and understanding it will help us open the inner valves on our intuition.
People are made up of an inner substance—sometimes called a soul substance—that reflects every bit of our life. Nothing gets glossed over; no aspect gets lost in the corner. So everything that has any significance—our thoughts and feelings, our intentions and actions—gets imprinted onto this substance, along with all the ramifications. The upshot of this is that everything’s available for review.
A person’s whole life can be looked at every which way; we are an open book.
As such, a person’s whole life can be looked at every which way; we are an open book. So each of us has this built-in recording device, which drives a hole through our grand illusion—one of our many—that as long as we keep our thoughts to ourselves, they won’t hurt anybody, including us. No dice. We go so far as to resent others if they react to our unspoken intentions, thinking our secrets are safe with us and shouldn’t count. But no, the recorder is always running, and it’s capturing the whole ball of wax.
How about the timing of effect-follows-cause? Surprise, surprise, there’s a bunch of other laws regarding that. Suffice it to say, sometimes it happens quickly and sometimes it happens slowly. But it always happens. Generally, the more highly developed an entity is, the faster will effect come after cause. Those who are still quite in the dark, well, they are in the dark a bit longer in this regard as well. Often, the less developed will only make the missing connections after their bodily garment has been shed.
Nothing is Missed
As said earlier, what happens in the big picture also shows up on the small screen. So the planet has a soul substance too, and everything that’s ever happened on Earth is imprinted there. Our history can be read as one immaculately kept record. Certain clairvoyant people, in fact, have special gifts for tapping into parts of the world record, although keep in mind that the limited consciousness of such a person can allow misinterpretations to cloud their vision. And since this whopper world recorder is outside the bounds of our 3D time and space, certain future possibilities—what’s most likely to manifest—can be found there as readily as transcripts about the past.
Just like our personal soul substance, the world substance is infinitely malleable; they are both made of the same stuff, and nothing gets past it—nothing that has already happened, nothing that is currently happening, and nothing that will ever happen. It’s automatic that it all gets imprinted. The recording includes the raw event along with any hidden motives and secret intentions; it even registers the precise balance of ambivalent feelings and the truth behind any decision we make.
It notes the alternatives we choose to act on—as people and as a planet—so there can be no obfuscation of what went on. On the surface we may be confused and in the dark, stuck in arguments and dissension, while deep below, our hidden levels of awareness are running the show. Nothing is missed.
If we could see all this with clarity, it would eliminate our pain of injustice.
If we could see all this with clarity, it would eliminate our pain of injustice. We would see, beyond the shadow of any doubt, that we live in an infinitely just creation where no error is possible. But such awareness can’t come cheap. We have to work for it, through our struggle of doing our work of self-knowing. This means we have to get over our resistance to looking within and discovering what is hiding in the cracks. And we will need to take responsibility for what we find.
This is what is meant by the Judgment Day talked about in religious circles. It hints at this notion of ultimate justice, but in our limited and negatively skewed view of things, people have taken this to imply an unfair, arbitrary rejection of who we are, instead of a fair and grand assessment. That’s humanity’s typical state of affairs, projecting our unloving attitude where it doesn’t belong.
In the end, divine justice is nothing more and nothing less than the sum total of everything an individual expresses. Then the inevitable consequences are both the measure and medicine for helping a person heal and expand into wholeness—that is to say, holiness.
The Way Out: Link Ourselves
Our struggle stems from the fact that our will is trying to go in two opposite directions. On the one hand, we duck our heads in the sand, fearing and resisting this grand accounting that overlooks nothing. On the other hand, it is our deepest longing to have exactly this piece of knowledge—to experience the truth of this full and fair reckoning; for only in this way will we heal this intense wound of believing that this world is totally unreliable and there really is no justice for all.
It is our deepest longing to have exactly this piece of knowledge—to experience the truth of this full and fair reckoning.
So what we ardently oppose on the surface, we vigorously long for within. When the outer self wins, our inner selves are in despair. We may feel this only vaguely or at other times quite keenly, but without awareness of what’s going on, we’ll never understand it clearly. In misinterpreting our despair, we blame everyone but ourselves for our pain.
Job One is to feel this pain caused by the belief we are puppets in an unjust world. Once we hone in on this specific pain, we can face the struggle against healing this pain—that push-me-pull-you inside attempting to go in two opposing directions. The only relief we’ll find comes from doing the thing we resist the most: linking up the causes we ourselves have set into motion with their effect on ourselves and others.
Once we remove this inner wall of resistance, it will seem foolish to have erected it in the first place. And it will be such a relief to see the orderliness of creation—the infinite mercy and justice woven into all that is. Plus, we’ll get a renewed sense of ourselves as an integral component of the fabric of life. All we do and desire and strive for and accomplish—it has an impact, whether we realize this or not.
The dark forces want us to remain in pain and confusion, disconnected from the greater reality of life.
We don’t need to fear or resist this reality. We only do so because we think our destructive bits are the whole pie—our ultimate essence and final reality. If that were true, it would indeed be unbearable. But that alternative is what the dark forces whisper into our ears. They want us to remain in pain and confusion, disconnected from the greater reality of life. For if we stay in the dark, we’ll rail against the pain of an unjust universe; we won’t see the beauty of God’s creation and the justice that permeates it all. We won’t see the truth that—really and truly, Scout’s honor—it’s all good.
And so we need to pray. We need to find faith in our ultimate goodness at our core, which will show itself only when we are able to see the darkness that is covering it up. Over and over, again and again, this is the step we need to take; and this step requires courage. We’ll find the strength to have the needed courage if we become aware that we matter. By simply existing, everything we do makes a difference.
It All Matters
Our thoughts do not befall us. We are the director of our thoughts. And with our thoughts, we create. They direct the flow of our feelings and choices. It’s a total illusion to believe that by not deciding our own thoughts or deeds, we don’t make a difference. Heck, we often think our choices have no impact even when we do make an effort. So then how much more do we doubt the effect of lukewarm withholding, or of not taking a stand, or not seeking out the truth.
Every thought sends out rays of energy that create according to their nature. We are already co-creating our current reality.
The reality of the situation is that all our non-actions have just as much impact as what we do. It’s all registered in our soul substance, including our hidden motives for having no gumption. So all our attitudes and feelings that accompany any decision to not act are noted and recorded. Every thought sends out rays of energy that create according to their nature. We are already co-creating our current reality.
This new vision of ourselves as constant creators can lend a new dignity to our lives. It can motivate us to choose to be an agent on behalf of God, searching for disturbances inside ourselves that block the beauty and wisdom and truth that are ready to flow through the instrument of our being. Or we can do the devil’s work. Whether we consciously know what we are doing, matters not a lick. We’re still doing it, and it is no less harmful.
Life is all about changing, and we can transform the worst in us to the best in us, forever and always; our soul substance is infinitely malleable. We can overcome our Lower Selves, and find new self-esteem. By harnessing the courage and maturity to face whatever negativity is still in us, we restore our faith in Christ, in justice, and in goodness. Our souls can be restored to their original vibrant condition.
Our key is always to look at our level of fear and anxiety. To whatever degree we feel these, we will feel the pain of injustice. And to that exact same degree, we are unaware of the effect of our Lower Self and its consequences. Conversely, to the extent we are able to name our fears and look directly at the pain of injustice gnawing at our insides, we will overcome our resistance to seeing how we disconnect from the turmoil wrought by our Lower Self. This is the doorway through which we can remove a crazy-big burden from our backs caused by the pain of injustice. We’ll gain a new security that all is, indeed, very well.
Adapted from Gems, Chapter 8: The Pain of Injustice and the Truth About Fairness