Lecture 131 – Interaction between Expression and Impression | Abbreviated Version

P1             The concept you are impressed with is that happiness is attainable only in the distant future. You strive toward the future, while happiness is in the now. In other words—and this may sound like a contradiction, but it is not—no matter how unhappy you are now, by understanding this now, you must be happy.

One (approach) is finding, expressing, and emptying out what is within you, so that it can be reexamined as to its truthfulness and reality. The second is impressing, molding and directing the powers within yourself, so as to create favorable, or more variable, circumstances. These approaches are interdependent. In order to live meaningfully and dynamically, an interrelationship between them is necessary.

P2             You all know that taking a truthful concept and impressing it over as yet unrecognized, untruthful ideas is merely self-deception, superimposition. Your psyche is like a vessel. If it is filled with muddy water and you pour clear water into it, the clear water becomes muddy too. So the muddy water must be emptied first. When I say it must be emptied, this means you must understand its contents. You must understand that particular misconceptions make the water muddy, what these misconceptions are, and in what way they are misconceptions.

When you build defenses against a nonexistent problem, no matter how you struggle, no matter how you defend yourself, you must entangle yourself deeper into a web of confusion. For each one of you has yet to get disentangled from such predicaments: struggling and defending against false assumptions, nonexistent dangers. Every one of you is constantly afraid, in one way or another, of being inadequate, of being rejected, of being looked down upon or not taken seriously.

Trying to solve a problem that does not exist must create real problems. The predicament against which you battle is a nonsensical idea, for others are not out to reject or diminish you, as you often emotionally perceive. Whether or not you are aware of it at this moment, nine-tenths of your attitudes to life—to yourself and to others—are a struggle against this false premise. In other words, you hope to make your defenses more adequate so as to be better equipped to solve your problem of rejection and inadequacy—a problem that does not exist. You focus on illusion, not on reality.

When this recognition dawns upon you, you will not project into the future a perfection of yourself and a perfect life experience. You will no longer need to strain toward being something you are not. The now will then be fully satisfactory. The emptying consists of recognizing that the problem you struggle against is not a real problem, but an imaginary one—an image!

Whenever an aim for self-expression and fulfillment stubbornly remains unfulfilled, a denying attitude that does not want it, that holds back from it, is overlooked. Instead, say: “If I feel hopeless because I do not get what I want, what is it in me that says no to it? I want and intend to find this denial.” Then the hopelessness will dissolve.

When you discover an untruthful concept, you must understand what the untruth about it is. In what way is it untruthful? What is the truthful concept that exists behind it? If a person lives in a climate where the sun rarely comes out and they forget that the sun exists, they will become hopeless. By realizing the sun exists behind the clouds, there is no hopelessness, even while the clouds prevail. It is the same with truth and untruth. Realize that no matter how negative, how hopeless, how unhappy your momentary moods are, the truth is the opposite.

P4             This impressing has the power to gather inner forces and direct them into the proper channels. In order to accomplish this, even at the early stages when the inner vessel is filled with unclear substance that needs to be emptied out, constant interaction between impressing—stating truth and formulating constructive intent—and expressing must prevail.

By honoring the individual rhythm of your personal path, you assume self-responsibility instead of trying to fit into prescribed rules. People have too ingrained a tendency to obey an authority. Too often, in a subtle and unrecognized way, you try to find and squeeze yourself into the tools given you, rather than locate your inner material first and choose the tool afterward.

P5             To recapitulate: impressing has two distinct facets. One helps to overcome resistance to expressing. The other reorients and rebuilds the inner personality by deliberate formulation and profound understanding of truth, as opposed to untruth. Reorientation of negative, destructive consciousness can take place only after you understand that there is an inner struggle against a nonexistent problem and that struggle is finally given up.

Whenever you come to this understanding, the second type of impressing is necessary. Without it, the understanding fades away after a while and your old, habit-bound emotions revert to their fearfulness of long standing, in blind automatism. When you go into your periods of meditation and concentration in this work, listen into yourself, into your soul movements. Instruct the deepest strata of your psyche that you want to properly express and that you also request and wish awareness of when to impress and when to express, and how to do either. Request inspiration to know to what extent your volitional mind has to function and when you must let go of your volitional mind and let yourself float, observing what is coming up.

P6             This false struggle not only concerns motivations—energy currents going in conflicting directions—but also separates you from the highest self. Wisdom, intelligence, strength, happiness, love, abundance—everything good that exists in the universe is in you. You cannot reach this source, which is so near, unless you realize the false struggle and understand it. The simple realization that the highest of all wisdoms must exist in you—even if at the moment you do not feel it and perhaps even doubt its existence—will open the way.

Honestly acknowledge your doubt, but also allow for the possibility that the wisdom does exist in you. Even when in doubt, it is possible to request guidance from within and truly be open to it. You, and so many people, are constantly in negativity because they do not dare to find out, once and for all, “Is it positive or negative? Is it true or not true?” (everything good in the universe is within me) They negate before they find a true basis for accepting because they are so afraid their acceptance may prove disappointing. Have the courage to assume the possibility of a positive alternative.

—The Pathwork® Guide