Lecture 141 – Return to the Original Level of Perfection | Abbreviated Version

P1             Even my friends who are very diligent and full of goodwill in this work often overlook, or forget, or still do not sufficiently comprehend, that everything one can possibly need exists in the human being in complete and total perfection. This potential is a reality.

P2             When you are unfulfilled and unhappy, you have moved your consciousness away from this potential. Each concept, each idea, thought and action are both cause and energy, setting in motion a series of chain reactions. The energy that creates the ensuing chain reactions produces the effects of the original cause, the original nucleus of energy. Each cause produces an effect. This is the nature of the self-perpetuating chain reaction. When a negative chain reaction is activated, each link—which is simultaneously cause and effect—must be retraced.

It must be understood and subsequently abandoned, so that the personality finds its way back to the original level where no conflict exists and where fruitful expansion is a reality. On this level, fearlessness, peace, unlimited unfoldment, stimulation—all that one could possibly desire—exist. The physical system contains an inherent healing force that is always ready to cooperate if you only give it a chance.

When you make an effort to comprehend the laws, to correct the impairment – when you trust this healing natural force as you do your best—this live power begins to operate. It is exactly the same on the mental and psychic levels. There, too, healing powers exist. These powers strive toward wholeness, constructiveness, expansion, fulfillment.

P3             What is the greatest violation that leads to further chain reactions of violation, error, confusion, and destructiveness? Fundamentally, it is ignorance of this process. The removal may exist only in certain areas of your personality, whereas in other areas you may be in very close touch with your original level of perfection, with its dynamic life and possibilities of unfoldment. But you have brought impairments with you into this life. You must use the power to switch from destructiveness to constructiveness, from separateness to inclusion.

You must use the power to become aware of where you impair your integrity and therefore violate the psychic laws. You must use the power to let go of the pseudosafety of hate and cruelty and change your personality into one of love for others. To make appropriate use of the powers at your disposal, first determine where you are in illusion about yourself and uncover where you are not as decent and loving as you thought. As long as the self and others seem separate, a conflict of interest will appear between the self and others, which forces you to be destructive—either of the self or the other.

P4             The awareness that your immediate problem can be solved—that you have within you everything you need to do this – must be the first step in any given phase. Now, my friends, when you look at your lives, question yourselves about where you could expand more. How could you experience life more deeply and fully? How could you be freer from any sort of disharmony within or around you? Where or how could you give and receive more? The next violation of the mental law is that of false ideas. Any false concept a person has is always directly related to somehow not wanting to accept a truth about oneself.

P5             People often want to ignore the possibilities and powers within themselves. You do so partly because you derive pleasure from complaining and unhappiness. Partly you truly fear these powers. You fear the possibility of happiness. You fear that you may not be able to handle it. You fear the ecstasy of a perfectly lived life, as you fear death, as you fear all great experiences that take you out of yourself. Finally, you will no longer shy away from the ecstasy of a fully lived life, where abundance, truth, love and the unlimited possibilities in every direction of your being exist.

But you still have to acclimate yourself to breathing fresh air, and such acclimation is possible only when you become truly willing to give up negativity and destructiveness. In the last few lectures we discussed how many of you are now beginning, little by little, to discover your deliberate destructiveness; how you want to be destructive, how you wallow in your desire to be destructive. This is great progress, my friends. Not knowing what you feel and what you want and what you aim for makes it impossible to go in any direction.

So, first, all your aims, desires and wishes—constructive or not, no matter how unconscious until now—must be acknowledged. You still do not wish to give up self-centeredness and isolation and accept a new way of life in which you include others, build instead of destroy, in which you want to contribute, even if this means relinquishing the importance of the little ego. The desire to be with others instead of against them has to be expressed. This entirely new attitude and way of life has to be actively wanted, embraced, cultivated.

P6             Issue the following instruction into your psyche: “I truly desire to give up my destructiveness. I want constructiveness. I choose this, not by any pressure or obligation, but because I wish this to be so.” You will, at that moment, find a fear. This tiny, little nucleus of fear—still vague, hazy, unpronounced—is what we have to bring into focus.

Then the next point is: Why do you like to hold on to it? Why do you actually find it safer than the limitless expansion of good that opens up when you let go of destructiveness, negation, denial, negativity? What is the fear? When you do not want to see the deliberateness of your destructiveness, you are stuck. This is, basically, the most important point of this work. Q&A Everything tenses up when things go well and I am happy. My whole body becomes almost incapable of relaxation. Yes. I would concentrate in the moment—as you issue into yourself the desire for constructiveness, happiness, fulfillment—and express the knowledge that this possibility exists in you.

P7             To the extent that deliberate destructiveness is unconscious, and therefore cannot be given up, happiness cannot be embraced. When you comprehend your deliberate destructiveness in all its forms—not necessarily in action, but predominantly in hidden emotions that can lead only to indirect corresponding actions as well as vague thoughts and half-conscious wishes—when this is concisely crystallized in your consciousness, you will immediately understand what blocks you.

Let me say now about this fear only that it is a very fundamental fear, that of dissolving. The fearful person experiences this vibration as a terrifying dissolution of self. It is this dissolving and unifying with the universal stream of being that people fear. This letting go appears frightening. It is a question of trust. As long as you do not have a deep trust in yourself, you cannot trust the universal forces. The trust in the self grows commensurately with the giving up of destructiveness.

P8             QUESTION: I stick to a guilt feeling because I get a negative, destructive pleasure out of it. If I would let go of this, I would then feel—perfectly irrationally—that, being happy, I would fear death. I feel that death does not matter when I am unhappy, so I do not permit myself to be happy. ANSWER: Again, this amounts to fear of death, the fear of having no individuality, no consciousness. This fear can be met only when trust exists—primarily trust in the self. This trust cannot be established as long as the personality plays such magical, childish, bargaining and—in the final analysis—dishonest games.

—The Pathwork® Guide