Lecture 154 – Pulsation of Consciousness | Abbreviated Version

P1             When fear exists, hate must exist—and vice versa. Yet identical laws must prevail for both (physical and consciousness). Everything that lives must pulsate, as it must breathe and move. Therefore pulsation and breathing are interrelated.

P2             The involuntary movements take place according to the three principles—namely, the expanding, restricting, and static principles. The identical (physical) laws apply to the level of consciousness, although there they are less obvious. The dimension of consciousness is not three-dimensional, as the physical organism is. The emotional or mental or spiritual organism belongs to another dimension.

In other words, the pulsation of consciousness expresses the state of consciousness at any given moment, the degree of self-realization and growth, or their lack. It expresses the particular meaning where growth is most needed, where it may be overemphasized at the price of neglecting other areas. The experience of each individual is a result of his or her innermost beliefs, concepts, attitudes, feelings, and actions. How each experience is met also determines the rhythm of pulsation.

People are often aware of phases, or cycles, in their lives. They feel they have “good times” and “bad times.” Let us now try to understand what expansion, restriction, and the static principle mean in terms of the pulsating movement of consciousness. The movement of expansion expresses reaching out; the restricting movement means bringing or gathering into the organism; the static movement means assimilation of both and the transition from one to the other. The spiritual significance of the transition is always in the service of growth, completion, perfection, additional creation, pleasure supreme. For growth and pleasure are one.

Expansion represents the direct expression of development, while the restricting and static movements indirectly further organic growth – through assimilation, digestion, utilization of what was gained, and rest. The disturbed organism is in fear, and fear makes expansion appear painful and threatening. Fear contracts into unpleasure. All outer, or apparently outer, experience coming to humans is, as we know, in reality selfproduced. It could not come your way from without if it were not there within your own consciousness first.

Since in reality the undesirable outer experience is an aspect of an existing condition within, fighting against it amounts to fighting against the self. To restrict the pulsation of consciousness by hardening up and refusing the experience is therefore completely opposed to the law of growth. The harmonious soul movements fill you with a wonderful, subtle, but distinct movement that is vibrant and pleasurable. You can feel yourself expand toward the outer world, your whole inner organism reaching out fearlessly and pleasurably—even when the outer experience is doubtful and not necessarily desirable.

This fearless meeting of it enables you to transcend the experience. In that way, the threat soon vanishes. The restricting movement does not cramp up and congest. It remains organic. During the inward movement the consciousness, on its deepest levels, corrects the misconceptions that have brought the outer unwelcome experience about. By not cringing away from it on the outgoing pulsebeat and by meeting what appears at first as pain, the ingathering movement may briefly intensify the pain. But soon, if the pain is truly met, it reduces itself naturally.

On the next outgoing beat the waste—misconception, fear—is expelled, just as the physical organism expels waste. How soon will you decide to go through it (hardship), in pulsating openness of your psyche, rather than attempting to go around? The latter is stark illusion, for meeting the difficulty cannot really be avoided. It must reappear, in different forms, until you have healed your spiritual organism from its afflictions. Fleeing the experience that seems painful, undesirable, dangerous, is fleeing from yourself.

Giving in to the fear of the experience makes you refuse the experience. Since the experience is a result of yourself, your refusal of it amounts to refusing yourself. Psychologically this refusal manifests in denial of happiness and pleasure. When anything happens to you that you shrink from—whether it causes mild annoyance or stark fright or anything in-between—remain inwardly relaxed. Observe the automatic reflex reaction in your soul movement, how it automatically tenses up. By remaining open and relaxed to the experience, no matter how painful or frightening it may appear, you allow it to happen to you. You thus admit that it is yours and proceed to find its origin in you.

P5             When the restricting, tense, congested movement pulls in automatically where it should remain vibrantly pulsating, its meaning can be translated into words. They are, “I do not want this experience.” This presupposes that the experience has nothing to do with causes within yourself. It presupposes that others, circumstances, chance have brought this experience to you. By refusing what is yours—good or bad—your mentality denies self-responsibility for the unwelcome experience, and your emotions disturb the natural rhythm of the pulsation of your entire organism.

I do not refer to occasional physical threats, where a quick defensive tightening is automatic and healthy. Allow the natural organism to continue the pulsation of expansion, restriction, and static movements uninterfered. The natural restricting movement will open up by itself. It will carry you quite naturally into the next organic expanding movement.

P6             Let the involuntary, self-regulating lawfulness establish harmony within by not interfering with fear and resistance. Seek to understand the connections between yourself and unwelcome emotions and those outer conditions that cause these emotions. Do this ego-cooperation in a firm, relaxed way. Relaxation must be combined with full commitment. Look at what you really feel. See what fear, pain, guilt and anger cause you to do within, how you contract. When you openly meet the condition or experience in the manner discussed, there will be pain too, at first.

But the pain will have a completely different characteristic. It will soon turn into a softness that can dissolve more easily. It will transform itself into meaningfulness and sense. It is a growing pain, not a death pain. When you remain truthfully open to the pain, fear, or other destructive emotion, you will not masochistically aggrandize and exaggerate it. Nor will you deny it—either by deluding yourself that it does not exist, or by refusing to meet it by pulling away.

P8             One who can accept pain, can endure pleasure. If you can meet your own negativity—your fears, anger, rage, the traits you do not like—in a rational and unexaggerated way, really meet it face to face and understand it, then you produce the love and trust I discussed.

—The Pathwork® Guide