Lecture 165 – Evolutionary Phases in the Relationship between the Realms of Feelings, Reason, and Will | Abbreviated Version

P1             When unification occurs, the layers melt into a oneness, which is then activated and moved by the divine kernel. When the overall organism tends toward growth, purification and union, those discordant layers, the aspects that resist union, gradually die off. Thus, when aspects of the organism stem against the necessary stages of growth, the self-selective process of dying off, or exclusion, sets in to protect the whole organism from being affected by life-defeating attitudes so it can continue to grow. Physical matter dies off only because underlying life-defeating attitudes fear truth and love. These fears induce decay, which finally manifests outwardly.

P2             If self-realization is to be attained, a new balance must be found in which the ego assumes an entirely different role. I might say that a new area is awakened, located in the center of your body, around the solar plexus. From this area new life flows—new feelings, a new way of perceiving and responding, a new way of knowing life, people, values, and events.

Everything is endowed with a new luminosity and a deeper meaningfulness. Beliefs change, or they feel different. The self becomes at once intensely personal and universal. Fear vanishes, and life becomes unending pleasure just because its opposite is no longer feared. The creative power of the self is available at all times, because of the personality’s freedom from fear.

P3             At one phase in this history, human beings were godlike, moved entirely by the creative, cosmic forces. They expressed a universal consciousness in every breath and every move of their eternally living existence. At a certain point this human-divine consciousness removed itself from its divine kernel. A chain reaction set in and humanity’s striving away from the innermost kernel has led to erroneous ideas, destructive reactions and feelings; spiritual blindness, unhappiness, and suffering followed.

(Explaining of the stages of development of consciousness): The realm of feelings is, at this point, predominantly a seething mass of denied pain and, therefore, of violence, hate, and malice. Yet the realm of feelings is the most alive and creative faculty. It is also self-perpetuating. As long as the feeling world is predominantly negative and destructive, its self-perpetuating nature creates highly damaging impulses and compulsions. This is why it is so feared. When this consciousness grows and the negativity of the feeling world becomes obvious, people do their best to deny, cover up, and inactivate their feelings. In the process of denial the spiritual self also becomes further removed. For the spiritual self resides directly within the realm of feelings. The creative mass of feelings is the divine, even if it now manifests in a destructive way.

P4             You fear the realm of feelings because it is still, in part, primitive. You are still imbued with the self-command you have learned throughout many existences: “I must keep the destructiveness under control.” They (people) identify and experience themselves almost entirely as the so-called ego—that part which wills and reasons. This was not a wrong turn, my friends. It was necessary. But now another way must be taken. Every challenge to change direction appears to your unconscious as an enormous threat. Humankind as a whole is arrested at exactly this point.

This is why your technological and scientific development is out of proportion to your feeling qualities and your capacity to experience spiritually. Your emotions seem far more negative than positive. Even your preaching about love and spirituality generally has little to do with true emotional experience. The scant feelings the average human being experiences are always controlled and approached very cautiously—being unaware of this fact does not alter it. It is part of your path to become aware of it.

Even admitting to yourself, “I feel half dead, I could feel more than I do, therefore the potential to do so must exist in me,” brings you so much nearer to the state of realization than confusing your desire to feel and love, because you believe in it only as a principle, with actually feeling and loving. How can you attain self-realization unless you learn to cope with the realm of feelings? When you do, you will discover that there is indeed something deeper, the divine kernel itself, because the realm of feelings is not a bottomless well of meaningless bleakness, unknown terror, reasonless violence, and selfishness.

This layer does exist, but only as a thin veneer. The fear that you will be helplessly swept away by your feelings, once they become conscious, is unfounded. Instead of holding back your feelings, you must learn to allow them to become conscious, let them be, and observe them without fright. You will see how easy it is to let your feelings be without acting upon them, choosing your actions deliberately instead. Perhaps it is still not quite clear to you why you must constrain those impulses in the first place when you must eventually let them go. The answer is really simple and important to comprehend.

When you observe a primitive person or an animal, you see that their consciousness does not yet allow for either reasoning or willing. These faculties therefore cannot be put to use, so that when impulses come to the surface, they dominate. Will and reason are underdeveloped and therefore cannot stem the flood of destructive emotions. Humans must spend many lifetimes training reason and will. Only when these faculties have been developed is it safe to allow primitive, destructive feelings to the surface without being compelled into action by them. You do not comprehend that you no longer need these controls, provided you are on a meaningful path of honest self-confrontation.

Now, using your will and reason for honest and humble self-confrontation, you can safely allow yourself to feel what you feel, without having to act on the feeling. For the divine kernel is a living, pulsating, energizing mass of the highest consciousness and wisdom, self-perpetuating and self-creating. There is no word to describe its intense and potent aliveness. When you fear and deny your feelings, your aliveness is by necessity also denied, whether or not you are aware of the connection.

P6             You, my friends, who really want to come into your divine nature, must not confuse spirituality with mere spiritual ideas. You must bring your living, feeling self into play, even if this cannot happen in any other way than by meeting destructiveness and pain. When you fully experience the hate and the pain in you without flinching, you will be surprised by what happens. Much sooner than you think, hate, violence and pain will dissolve and give way to a new aliveness.

The danger of being forced into actions against your reason and will is truly an illusion in the state you are in now. The immediate danger is your difficulty in admitting that you are not yet who you want to be. You are using the busy mind, the overemphasized reasoning faculty, to fit your feelings into pictures, to build theories about why you feel a certain way.

P7             Learn to calm your mind and stop denying your feelings by agitatedly fitting the hurtful event into fixed images and theories. Let it be! Feel what you feel, without having either to act on it or to reason it out. Then you will experience a wonderful process: The negative, painful feeling will dissolve naturally, as every living process dissolves into its original state if its natural course is not obstructed. The original state is not pain but pleasure, not suffering but joy, not deadness but forever expanding abundance of life.

Yet these desirable experiences cannot be stuffed forcibly into a self, if they are to be real and enduring. They must come organically when one does not flinch from what one really feels. They come gradually, to the degree that you experience your actual sensations and feelings without either denying or exaggerating them. Thus you awaken your spiritual center, which will fill your entire being with a sense of safety, strength and beautiful new feelings, and eventually with new insights, perceptions and intuitions—even new faculties.

—The Pathwork® Guide