P1 You will experience your life circumstances and your inner state in accordance with the advancement you have made on your own inner path. There is no truer measurement. You can never measure yourself against others. Where you are now may be just right for you. When you know this, you will feel bright and hopeful. The only reliable and realistic gauge of the fulfilment of your life plan is how you feel about yourself, your life, and those around you.
What does commitment mean? It means, above all, a onepointedness of attention; giving the self in a wholehearted way to whatever the commitment may be. If you are committed to give your best to whatever you do, you will focus on all aspects of the subject. You will not shy away from investing all your energies, all your attention. You will use your faculties of thinking, of intuition, of meditation to make the venture constructive. In order to be fully committed, no negative intentionality must exist.
Commitment exists in every imaginable undertaking. It does not apply only to great and significant ventures, such as your spiritual path of self-evolution, which is the most important undertaking in life. It also applies to every mundane little task. To the degree you are committed, what you do will be pleasurable, free from conflict, and rewarding. When the effect is not recognized as the result of the cause set in motion, which in this case is a half-commitment, a split exists in the consciousness producing all sorts of negative chain reactions.
Your confusion will first breed a sense of helplessness and injustice. If you are not aware that you commit only a part of yourself to a venture, while another part says no, and if you disregard that the undesirable outcome is caused by this, then you cannot help feeling embittered. You cannot help feeling that the world is a haphazard place, without rhyme or reason. You will consequently become frightened, defensive, distrustful, grabbing, anxious, and ruthless. Instead of changing the counterforce that eliminates full commitment, you will use the energy to push others aside or withdraw into failure and passivity.
P3 Do you suffer from an overt condition, such as unfulfillment with a mate, or lack of the proper mate? Ask yourself: what is your intentionality in this respect? When you can verify that indeed a voice in you says, “No, I do not want to give to love, to the relationship, to the opposite sex my best,” then you will find your suffering explained because you have drawn the link between cause and effect. If you have no financial security, look inside to find the negative intent that says, “I do not want to be able to take care of myself, because if I do, I let my parents off the hook. Or I may be expected to give something that I don’t want to give.”
Are you frightened? Are you insecure? Do you feel inadequate? Do you feel an inexplicable anxiety and tension? Do you suffer from guilt feelings which you cannot explain and try to talk yourself out of because the manifest guilt seems—and on a certain level is—totally unjustified? Do you deplore your weakness, your lack of self-assertion? All these are effects of some negative intentionality that is deliberate on a level that must be totally brought out into the open.
For example, if you harbor spite, stubbornness, rebellion, malice, hate, pride—all of these traits must make you feel guilty. Such guilt may find its outlet in an artificial, unjustified guilt as I have explained many years ago. Guilt must also lead to self-destructive acts; it must cause weakness, anxiety, lack of assertiveness. You can be genuinely free of them only if you make the connection between them and their cause, the negative intention.
The stronger your disinclination to admit the negative intentions, the more you will capitalize on that position, always hoping that your resentful, blaming self-pity and helplessness will “convince” life, others, fate, to give you the desired outcome that only a positive intentionality can bring about. But positive intentionality requires commitment: total, unequivocal commitment.
P5 The cause and effect relationship seems broken to the human consciousness from one lifetime to the next. Only as awareness increases on such a path does the spiritually mature person grow sufficiently to sense, and later even to inwardly know, important connections between causes from former lives and effects in the present life. It may at first be very uncomfortable for you to see how you create what you deplore; how, if you wish a different life experience, you must give up what you ferociously hang on to.
But once you perceive and accept the beauty of these laws, the sense of safety and freedom that arises is beyond words. What seems like a fate beyond one’s control—for example, where one is born, as what, how one’s face and body look, what one’s talents are, will be sensed as self-caused and selfwanted, sometimes wisely, sometimes destructively. Universal, ever-available abundance becomes realizable in proportion to your awareness. When misconceptions can, on the innermost level, be exchanged for truth; when negative intentionality is being exchanged for positive intentionality; and when the individual no longer defends against experiencing pain, a substantial step of the initial purification has been accomplished.
P6 Negative intentionality is a defense against experiencing pain. Every individual’s task on the evolutionary road is to eliminate evil, to transform it back into its original state of pure energy and loving, truthful consciousness. You can experience the illusion of the defense the moment you fully open yourself to experience the pain—and I do not mean here the false pain. There is a pain that is in itself a defense, as you all know—an unbearable, twisted, bitter pain that stems from a forcing current that says, in effect, “Don’t do this to me, life.”
It lacks the mature willingness to let be what is. In experiencing real pain, you stop controlling, manipulating, hiding—the pain simply is. When the soul has learned to make itself available for what life offers, even if it is occasionally pain, it does not need negative intentionality. In the second major phase in the evolutionary progression the soul learns to acclimatize itself to universal bliss. To the degree evil exists—misconceptions, defenses, negative intentionality, refusal to experience one’s self-produced pain—bliss is unbearable.
But even when the soul is free from evil, at first it still requires strengthening to withstand the enormous power of the spirit. This truth can be recognized to some degree within your own human development. It has happened to all of you that you can no longer bear bliss, pleasure, ecstasy, happiness. You feel more comfortable in greyness.
P7 This is why now, in these gatherings, due to your development, you first respond to the pure influx of spiritual power with crying. Surge forward on this road of exploring. Admitting your negative intentions, your spiteful, deliberate withholding. Then make the next connection. Investigate what you really dislike in your life. What would you like changed? Make the bridge between these two aspects: the withholding and the unfulfillment. When you are totally committed to feeling what is in you, you will become free and truly alive. As you let go of the defenses, you will make the transition from the false pain of complaining bitterness to the real pain that is soft, melting, and joyous—yes, joyous. The more mature you become, the more you see that freedom and responsibility are interdependent and inseparable.
P8 The physical level of action is only the result; the inner reality is the cause. An apparently good action often has disastrous results because it is undermined by covert negativity. On the other hand, an apparently very bad occurrence may be a blessing when the underlying motive and the inner attitudes are in truth and positive. The more you advance, the stronger the impact of your remaining negativity becomes. This is another spiritual law.
—The Pathwork® Guide