Lecture 25 – The Path, Initial Steps, Preparations and Decisions | Abbreviated Version

P1             You may be able by voluntary action to refrain from committing a crime such as stealing or killing, but you cannot possibly force yourself to feel that you do not want to harm anybody, ever. You may act kindly toward another, but you cannot force yourself to feel kindly. Neither can you force yourself to have love in your heart or to have real faith in God. Whatever pertains to emotions is not dependent upon your direct actions or even on your thoughts. Changing your feelings requires the slow process of self-development and self-recognition. Primarily this path is about changing your innermost feelings.

P2             Purification means to separate, understand, and rearrange in conscious understanding all these various trends, thus purifying the basic good trends from all masks of self-deception and from influences caused by character weaknesses. Your Higher Self seeks to advance for the love of God by way of recognition and enlightenment, aware that only when you are perfect will you be truly capable of loving your fellow creatures. But your Lower Self wants to be perfect in order to have more ego-gratification and to swell its head, to be admired. All of you, without exception, also feel this way. Here is an example where both the Higher and the Lower Self want the same thing, but their motives are entirely different.

P3             You must also recognize the reasons why your Lower Self turns you away from facing yourself. One reason is that to recognize your self as imperfect is unpleasant. The other is that the Lower Self is lazy and never wants to work. You can reach perfection only by going through your imperfections, not by going around them. It is necessary for you to face the fact that the path is long and that repercussions and times of testing will not cease as quickly as you would like to believe. Certainly your outer and inner problems will lessen and finally cease, but only after a long time, after you have first thoroughly understood your inner makeup and rearranged your inner currents.

P4             Another thought for meditation: when you go on this path, you must also prepare yourself to abide by another of the spiritual laws, which says that there is a price to be paid for everything. The price is: no self-pity, no self-delusion, utter severance with the little ego, time, effort, patience, perseverance, and courage. Consider what the price must be, and what you must expect. Then make your decision.

P5             Are you willing to take this path? Oh, you may say, “It may take a few more lives. I am too tired.” I can only answer that this again is very short sighted; if you are tired or weak, it is because your inner forces exhaust themselves in the wrong channels so that your strength cannot organically renew itself as it does in a soul that functions well.

Distinguish the three necessary types of work involved in purifying yourself on this path. One is your outer behaviour, the recognition of your apparent faults and qualities, as well as every occurrence that is on the surface. The next phase—and these phases often overlap—is tackling that layer of yourself that does not belong directly to your subconscious, but which you are unaware of because you are deliberately escaping it. This layer has to be treated in a different manner which I will show you. The third and equally important layer is your subconscious mind.

P6             The world of emotion can only change by organic growth, not by pressure and voluntary action, except in an indirect way.

P7             All of you here know that the Lower Self is merely a temporary layer and does not constitute your entire personality.

P8             It is technically correct to say that God created evil, but it would be more correct to say that God created the possibility for evil if with their free will people—or spirits—use this power against divine law. There is a great difference between creating evil, or giving free will and power to God’s creatures who can then use the power according to divine law or not. Logically, free will includes the possibility of using it wrongly. If this possibility did not exist, there would be no freedom. If instead of saying “God created evil,” it had said, “God created the possibility of evil,” the meaning would have been correct.

P10          Without friction, development can never proceed.

P11           It takes the Lower Self a very long time to become ready to give up its faults, its resentments, its sluggish ways. Constant self-observation and self-honesty will have a surprising effect on you. By following this procedure, you will learn to follow the law of reality, accepting yourself as you are and thus learning true humility.

P12           This period of constant self-recognition where you make comparisons between your emotions which conflict with what you have long recognized as being right teaches you humility. To accept yourself as an imperfect being is accepting yourself in the right way, without guilt feelings and self-abuse. Realize that before your imperfections can change, you have so many other things to learn from this very imperfection in you.

—The Pathwork® Guide