OK, so Jesus loves us. Now what do we do with that? A good start is to fight the good fight of removing the barriers that prevent us from feeling this truth. Many of us have already strengthened our realization that this world is infused with God, but not so many have made personal contact with him yet. God became human, so it is possible to know him in this personal and loving way.

OK, so Jesus loves us. Now what do we do with that? Fight the good fight of removing the barriers that prevent us from feeling this truth.
OK, so Jesus loves us. Now what do we do with that? Fight the good fight of removing the barriers that prevent us from feeling this truth.

Instead, we who believe in God often have a much more vague and general experience. This can be a problem because, in truth, we can only experience what we can conceive of and believe in.

When we search for a realization of Jesus Christ, we may bump into our inner barrier instead. The vicious circle looks like this: When we feel we are unworthy, unlovable or unacceptable, it’s not possible to believe that Christ cares a lick about us. So we need to work on establishing some level of self-acceptance and self-respect. The paths we need to take in this direction will surface our real justified guilt for not loving, which we then need to oust—hopefully without annihilating ourselves in the process. This is a common pitfall of the purification process. Lots of self-condemnation tends to accompany our efforts to clean up our Lower Self. But that’s exactly what must be done to make room for self-love.

To top things off, if we have no sense at all that Jesus Christ personally cares about us, it’s exceedingly hard to find our real value. So we need a two-pronged approach. We must be thorough and rather ruthless in searching our soul for obstructions, while at the same time having compassion and realism, deeply desiring to feel Jesus nearby. It can be hard to take it in that Jesus cares about every smallest detail in our lives.

But the glory that comes with doing this as we go along on our spiritual path is hard to describe. Nothing compares. For many, though, the price tag to know such total fulfillment feels very high. It requires total surrender of our will to God’s will, without reservations. In everything.

Instead, we hold back. We have some little corner where we hold out, believing that our self-will knows better than God about what makes us happy. And then here is Jesus Christ asking us to trust him and give ourselves to him. We batten down the hatches.

In reality, we can’t eliminate our fears and our inability to trust others without practicing surrender to the highest within ourselves. We need each other, all of us. We hang together on a chain of connectedness. If we center our dependence on God and his personal aspect, Jesus Christ, we create a healthy center of gravity anchored deep in our soul. His presence then merges with our Higher Self and we truly become one.

Then all our relationships with others will be free of neurotic dependency. In this way, we will know where our trust is justified and where it is not. We’ll have healthy relationships with our leaders and followers. Without this healthy center, we will live in fear. We won’t trust our own judgments. We’ll be confused, becoming distrustful and gullible in all the wrong places.

Nothing is more painful and frightening to us than not being able to make the connection between painful life events and their inner cause. Having such a deep connection with the personalized God will illuminate such connections we couldn’t see before. Its such a relief to discover there is a reason for what we experience.

It happens that we tune our personal will toward total surrender—and even sincerely mean it—and then nothing happens. No sweet loving presence of Jesus shows up. We may have to wait. And that’s when we become impatient and begin to doubt, effectively yanking up the seedlings we’ve just started growing. It’s not that Jesus is keeping us waiting. It’s that our inner barriers have to give way. And that process may take its own sweet time.

But chill—Christ is here. He hears you and he loves you. He protects you and cares deeply about you, even if you can’t yet feel it. At some point, you will be intensely aware of this fact. He will wrap his loving arms around you and give you peace. Not to mention the sustenance you’ll likely need for your life task. This is something worth fighting for.

We’re used to fighting for our Lower Self aims, but we need to learn to fight the good fight. We can’t afford to be apathetic about living the good life. Neither can we afford to sit back and be passive as we become enveloped in our own negativities. When we do this, we draw dark forces to us. This makes it easier to unleash our aggression in a destructive way, instead of using some of that zeal to dispel the evil and assert positive forces within and around us.

We need to be willing to seriously question any thoughts that make us feel disharmonious and in any way uncomfortable—that seem correct but fail to bring a feeling of peace, love and unity. Just being willing to let in the light of truth—the truth of God rather than some temporary perception of truth—creates a shift in consciousness. It helps to visualize surrendering one’s tightly held position to God and his vision of truth.

This is the way to becoming enlightened and it lifts a tremendous burden. On the other hand, if it seems personally humiliating to be wrong, to be imperfect, or to have made a mistake, it will be so much more difficult to release one’s tightly held position. This is what happens when we hold a low opinion of ourselves. The lower it is, the greater is the stake in some prideful, egotistical, self-elevating and self-righteous position. And usually, for good measure, there will be judgment of others thrown in there too.

The solution? You guessed it—reach out to Jesus. If we can know and later feel his love and total acceptance, no matter what kind of mess we may be now, we will be able to learn to do the same for ourselves. This is the way to come to trusting our own divine nature. Then we can afford the luxury of accepting our sins—the places where we miss the mark. We won’t lose the ground under our feet. And from there, we can reach further for truth. That’s the route to reaching harmony with ourselves, others and life.

See yourself being firm and reasonable with your own Lower Self. Ask Christ to help you out. Then stake your claim that you only want the will of God and nothing less. You trust that it will bring you the best you could ever hope for, and if anyone says otherwise, it’s a lie. Put some shoulder into this. Plant these seeds deep in your soul substance.

This is how we transform aggression into something that works for us, not against us. This is how we rout out painful untruthfulness in our psyche. Don’t be fooled into thinking these aspects will roll over easily. Untruthfulness is not easy to ferret out. That’s why people need to work with someone—a healer, a Helper, a therapist, a friend. Believe it or not, our faults and weaknesses are a lot more obvious to other people. Some bits may take a long time to surface. Those may be issues we didn’t originally plan to take on in this incarnation. But having completed our original task, our spirit may have chosen to go ahead and tackle them. So fasten your seatbelt.

Consider this perspective: your true being has never been touched by any of this. It’s in total wellbeing, without any pain. It’s observing your Earth-being who is working on correcting some distortions. It has compassion for the momentary struggle. But this does not appear to be a tragedy. All is well, and this is just a temporary suffering that is leading to salvation. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah.

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