This longing to know ourselves at a deeper level—at the level of the divine kernel itself—means we must access the realm of feelings. We fear, however, that this is a bottomless pit of meaningless bleakness, unknown terror, unreasonable violence and selfishness. Yes, such layers of negativity do exist in us. But they are a thin veneer compared to our true unlimited depths.
Think about some unimportant incident that left you feeling a certain way. Maybe you were angry or irritated, hurt or frustrated. Or perhaps you had a reaction that was joyful and optimistic. Nestled in each of these reactions was a desire. The way to find out who we are is to figure out the desire that is embedded in each of our daily reactions. In other words, how did we become who we are today?
You could say our life is an instrument that picks up on the wavelengths coming from within. Like a radio that can only play what it receives, our outer experiences can only reflect our inner self. In other words, all the disharmonies and conflicts that show up “out there” in life are always a reflection of what is really going on inside us. We will start to see this is true when we start to face into our inner illusions.
