Meeting the Selves
Qualities of the Higher Self, Lower Self, Mask Self, Ego
From Spilling the Script: Meeting the Selves
Unhealed Ego
- Immature • Lives in duality: Can’t hold opposites
- “See me, I’m better than you, love me for it.”
- Competes to be better than others • “Me versus the Other”
- Uses drugs, distractions to avoid, escape, try to transcend itself
- Demands to be master
Shame | Outer Layer of Mask
- Don’t expose • Must hide
- “I’ll be so embarrassed, I’ll die”
- “I’m the only one” • “I’ll be rejected”
- A lid that lifts off with appropriate exposure
Mask Self | Idealized-Self Image | Defense Strategies | Not Real*
- Does the dirty work of Lower Self • Furthers separation
- Uses defenses to mask pain of not getting needs met:
- Aggression • Submission • Withdrawal (none work)
- Three defense strategies: Power Mask (Attack), Love Mask (Submit), Serenity Mask (Withdraw)
- Judges others to avoid feeling affected by them
- Signs of mask: Urgency • Secrecy • Denial • Projection
- Uses forcing current or collapses • Resigns to hopelessness
- Blames • Is a victim • Gives away power • No boundaries
- Uses rationalizations • “Shoulds” • Excuses
- False pain: “Don’t do this to me, life!”
- False guilt for getting pleasure from destruction, for competing and maligning
- False conclusions: “It’s not safe to love” • “If I’m perfect,
- I’ll be loved.”
- Impossibly high standards • Perfectionism
*“Not Real” means this is a strategy, a manipulation of life, that is not energized by our life force.
Little-L Lower Self | Young Split-Off Fragments | Real Self in Distortion | Untrue Self | Inner Child
- “I Can’t” • Tense • Scared • Anxious
- Has immature Emotional Reactions
- Inner soul split is transferred onto parents
- Holds unconscious wrong beliefs, unfelt pain
- Wants 100% perfect, exclusive love • Can’t win
- Always wants its way • Feels frustrated, rejected
- Wrong conclusion: I’m not enough, don’t matter, am not worthy
- Attaches pleasure principle to pain • Must recreate painful atmosphere/experiences to come alive • No way out
- Caught in duality • “Me versus the other” • Life or death
- Feels: Pain, Helpless, Rage • Blocks pain by freezing feelings
- Pain creates resentment • Child fears punishment for hate
- Adult recreates childhood hurts • Reacts immaturely
- Vicious Circle: Rejection > Pain > Hate > Shame > Guilt > Self-Punishment> Self-Rejection…repeat
- Transfers painful experiences onto others
- Lives in a trance
Big-L Lower Self | Real Self in Distortion | Untrue Self
- “I Won’t” • Cruel to self and others • Highly charged
- Harsh • Raw • Misuses will: “I’ll hurt me, and I’ll hurt you”
- Faults: Self-Will, Pride, Fear • Fears humiliation • Must rule
- Strategies to rule: Bully, Betray, Seduce/Reject, Hold back
- Stuck in blindness • Blocked • Numb • Keeps secrets
- Not willing to pay the price or make the effort
- Demands to get love • Gives to get • “My way!”
- Follows Path of Least Resistance • Attaches pleasure to pain
- Builds cases against others • Maligns • Judges
- Bad moods • Pessimistic • Inner critic • Tyrant • Victimizer
- Hidden No-Current says No to life • Rigid • Inflexible • Stubborn
- Withholds • Won’t give or give in • Rebellious • Resistant • Defiant
- Negative Intention is to stay separate • Uses untruth to justify itself
- Uses materialism to avoid the work of self-knowing
- Uses half-truths to deceive • Creates confusion • Is destructive
- Is not in truth
Healed Ego | Objective Observer
- Makes peace with duality
- Mature • Prays to know the truth
- Sees and unwinds mistaken beliefs
- Connects Higher Self with split-off parts
- Aligns with God’s will • Focuses • Commits
- Surrenders • Lets go • Desires to be a servant
- Willing to pay the price and make the effort
- “Me and the Other” • Eventually dissolves
Higher Self | Real Self | True Self
- God is in me • I am Light• Divine spark • Inner Essence
- Never comes, never goes • Just is • Trustworthy • Flows
- Abundant • Creative • Orderly • Yes-Current that creates
- Nature • Life • Life force • Courage • Wisdom • Love
- Unity • “Me and the Other” • Balances active & receptive
- Accepts imperfection • Feels remorse for hurting others
- Experiences real guilt • Feels pain of blindness, sadness, grief
- Holds opposites • Holds whole truth • Transparent • Authentic
- Comfortable with paradox • Compassion and self-responsibility
- Self-Autonomy and selflessness • Humility and strength
- Emptiness and fulfillment • Giving and receiving
- Guidance • Intuition • Inspiration • Discerning
- Pleasure • Joy • Beauty • Humor • Harmony • Fluid • Flexible
- Willing to give, to be of service • Is present in the Now
- Enjoys the peace that surpasses all understanding
Guidelines for Self-Healing
Guidelines for Self-Healing offers tips for telling which part is in the lead—the Higher Self or the Lower Self—along with clues about what the ego should be watching for.
| Higher Self | Lower Self | Ego Self |
| Mature | Immature | Pays attention and notices when we’re in an emotional reaction. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Quiet, calm, centered, patient | Loud, angry, fearful | Pays attention and notices when we’re being hateful or anxious. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Relaxes while in motion | Controlling or hopeless | Pays attention and notices our alternating forcing current or resignation. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Healthy No | Rebels, resists, defies, denies | Pays attention and notices our destructiveness. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Healthy Yes | Submits, gives to get | Pays attention and notices when we’re not standing on our own two feet. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Present in the moment | Withdraws, runs, escapes, hides | Pays attention and notices our avoidance, distractions and addictions. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Builds consensus | Builds cases | Pays attention and notices when we’re serving separation, not connection. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Holds opposites | Opinionated, self-righteousness | Pays attention and notices when we insist on being right. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Aligns with God’s will | Aligns with self-will | Pays attention and notices our lack of trust and ability to let go. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Fluid, resilient, free flowing | Rigid, harsh, judgmental | Pays attention and notices when we are stuck on a position or hard feeling. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Lives in harmony | Thrives on conflict | Pays attention and notices disharmonies in our lives. Then takes action to sort ourselves out. |
| Fights the good fight | Follows the path of least resistance | Pays attention and notices when we are being lazy. Then makes an effort to heal. |

Key Aspects of the Spiritual Journey
From unity to separation to reconeection
From Spilling the Script
Unity
All is one.
The Fall
Use our free will to experience negative aspects of divine qualities; Descent into dark spheres caused masculine-feminine split along with inner splits and fractures in psyche.
The Plan of Salvation
The plan that gives us a path for escaping the darkness and returning to God, if we choose; Now we can save ourselves.
Incarnation
We take on a task to heal a certain aspect of our negativity in this lifetime.
Transference
Main soul split is transferred onto parents.
Mask Self: Defenses
Shame
Outer layer of our mask that wants to hide our inner distortions from ourselves and others.
Idealized Self-Image
Mask of perfection is designed to compensate for missing self-esteem and bring love: “This is who I must try to be, to be loved.”
Defenses
The strategy we choose for avoiding pain and getting our way: Aggression, Submission or Withdrawal.
Little-L Lower Self: “I can’t”
Needs Not Met
Child wants 100% perfect, exclusive love and to always have its way; This is not possible, resulting in feelings of rejection, humiliation and frustration that make the child feel inferior.
Images
Wrong conclusions about self, others and life are generalized and go into the unconscious.
Blocks
Resistance to painful feelings creates frozen blocks of energy and consciousness, which are held in the psyche and show up in the body.
Big-L Lower Self: “I won’t”
Faults
Lower Self uses various faulty ways to overcome its fear of humiliation (fear) and feelings of inferiority (pride); It wants to win, creates inner walls, builds cases and won’t let others off the hook (self-will).
Negative Pleasure
Pleasure current has gotten attached to painful childhood atmosphere; Life force is later activated through similar destructiveness.
Negative Intention
Lower Self resists giving or giving in; Uses images to justify this; Wants to stay stuck and stay in separation.
No-Current
Hidden faulty belief says no to fulfillment, making yes-current frantic and ineffective.
Vicious Circles
Negative patterns are continually recreated, resulting in pain, hate, shame, guilt and self-punishment.
Higher Self: “I am not alone”
Purification
We must bring all this into conscious awareness; Call on God to help correct wrong thinking, release unfelt pain, re-educate the inner child, and visualize a new reality based on truth; We must find our hidden No to life and transform it.
Transformation
Move toward connection; Activate the greater consciousness within.
Unity
Experience self as one with all.
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